Let me start by saying, I am no stranger to blogging. I have created two blogs in the last ten years and I must say, each is definitely reflective of my, dare I say, “persona” at the time. The first blog I ever made was very much ridden with angst and sometimes incomprehensible rambling. This should come as no surprise as it was made during my junior year in high school. Back in 2005, blogging was a relatively new trend that came to the Philippine shores. Almost everyone in my batch created one, particularly under Blogger.com’s platform because of the user-friendly interface as well as the option of having a customized look and feel to one’s blog. Lord knows how many times I scoured Blogskins.com trying to find a layout that was so uniquely “me,” something that virtually screams my name when you open my URL. Customization aside, the username was just as important as the things you put in the actual entries. My blog was appropriately named (for the 15-year-old me, at least) My F*cking Confessional. Even more so, it was spelled out in alternating caps (yes, proto-Jejenism at its finest). I just had to add the expletive to make it seem more “in your face” and more angst-y.
Fast forward to late 2006, I grew tired of the seemingly bleak excuse for an online journal that was my blog. I decided that I needed to change my outlook. And change, I did. I created a new blog, but this time it portrayed a decidedly different. Whereas my previous incarnation was a lovesick yet forlorn “creature,” the new me was more upbeat. So upbeat in fact that I decided to ditch the whole my-blog-is-predominantly-black-because-I’m-miserable shtick and opted for dizzying bright gradients for my banner (I still kept the splatter motif though) which in turn reflected onto my blog entries. For one thing, I wrote like a psychotic 10-year-old girl in the midst of a sugar rush (hence the name, Sugar and Strife). There was, however, some glimmer of hope in my writing. Certain entries were very introspective but not in the shallow high school-ish manner that I had years ago. Sadly though, my blog only lasted for only two years.
With this new WordPress blog though, I feel that I have really matured. Now it seems, my cynicism has ripened and my wit has become increasingly sharp. I intend on having a steady direction for this little project (figuratively and literally speaking). Gone are the gratuitous displays of self-indulgence. I will do my best to make each post as substantial and as insightful (but at the same time interesting) as possible. But of course, don’t expect me to be a blog prude though. I will have my share of overzealous blog posts but rest assured, it won’t be limited to just that. Let’s just say, I’m going to be more straightforward and more serious (gasp!) with my writing style. I just hope that I can keep this up as long as possible, meaning until I get graded for this. Just kidding, Sir Barry!